Fear...

We all fear something in life. A conversation yesterday with my dad's good friend confirmed this theory for me. He is someone who puts on a very brave face all the time, but to have him say that he was scared of something was not what I had expected.

He was scared of death, of the fact that he would have let his loved ones deal with life themselves and alone.

Letting few very dear people go would be a very painful thing to do, but that is the only certainty of life. Everything is going to change, people, relationships and everything else that we all hold on to very dearly. Its difficult, having seen people go through that loss has changed me and my perception towards death.

I read this article in a magazine today. It said people who communicated their feelings about death actually felt better while facing it. Interviews of terminally ill patients who are living the last few days of their life have planned how their remaining life should be and also how their death should be!! They must be such brave people. But they leave this world content, happy that they know everyone is going to be fine after they've left and that they made this happen.God give them the strength they need and may their souls RIP.

Lets be different!!!

Even as the entire nation is talking about the impending Raamjanmabhoomi verdict or the CWG, I ponder over what to write about. Rolls of newsprint , internet space and media coverage has been wasted on these topics and how...!!!

I wish there is a peaceful ending in Ayodhya and I also wish that the CWG gets over on a successful note!

But,my attention is grabbed by someone like RAJNIKANTH!!!!!

I cannot think of someone else who has had such a huge fan base in every corner of the country. The adage "u can run,u can hide but u cant escape" is perfectly for this man! Such humble beginnings to wherever he is now,is totally totally remarkable! I've heard from a million people that he is also the epitome of kindness and generosity and I have to believe it. If I'm not wrong,there are temples in many parts of South India where 'Rajni' is worshipped. Call it fanaticism or mere foolishness, its still the truth!

Just this morning ,I read jokes about this man's action on the silver screen. They were hilarious,I remember falling off my seat laughing! That is Rajni for you! Super good,super man!!

I'm logging off now. It sounds selfish,but I'm not worried about today because all those I love are safely home and blissfully asleep. :)

Learn this!!!

Some people really do think that they can get away with whatever they say and on public forums like blogs!!! Oh no,its not fine at all, you simply cannot speak all that you want without verifying your facts. Now,this is something my new job has taught me and I can't agree more.

Now that was one part of of being 'not nice'!

The other parts sound more harsh,maybe!

When someone says they are busy,please please do not try to irritate the hell out of them by asking 'so,whats keeping you busy?',unless you want to be yelled at. No,nobody did that to me today but some useless people do this and its highly annoying. If you are important enough,you will be informed otherwise do not bug people to satisfy your own curiosity. "You will not be kept in the loop unless you deserve to be kept!" How I wish I could take names and say "Hello Mr.XYZ,this was for you!" Alas,I have been taught not be extreme rude... ;)

The last and most important lesson to be learnt[all of us should learn], never never ever keep somebody waiting!!! Safely I can say, boys,this one specially is for you! Don't ever say that u'll get back and fail to do so. Trust me,you would never want to be on the receiving end of this treatment. So,people,always return your calls and reply to those nice mails and messages.

Ok,I'm running off now,got few calls to make! ;)

Im here, and for me I've arrived. I knew always that this was how I wanted everything to be,but so soon,I hadn't expected it. Its nice though,I don't have to keep quiet when I feel someone's saying wrong or doing wrong. A new found attitude some may say,but I say,its found new found confidence.

To leave home in the morning and to get back after a day at work,is awesome. It is tiring at times,but not too surprisingly,I'm loving it :) To get back to mom wanting to hear everything from me about the day's work,what went right,what did not,its all very very nice as compared to what was happening a few days ago.

Those who really know me know that I have such a fragile sense of self-esteem and important things like that. But what's new is that I've now realized that I was never anything less than anyone. It was just that a lot of people made me feel that way and I let them win! But not anymore

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"What has changed?" few may ask. A lot has changed. I had this conversation with this someone few days ago. and I found out,yes,I have changed indeed. Changed for good,for all things nice. And for all things great that I'm sure will happened.

I know I'll be taken in the wrong sense,for not many people really know what i mean. But what's new is that I don't really care what someone thinks, until they really matter to me.

This is new and it for sure makes me a very happy person!!!

So near,yet so far...

On one of those rare evenings together,
as we held hands and walked down the road.
You were happy to be with me,
I was too,but maybe it never showed.

So far,yet so near,
never realizing when we grew apart.
Still the love was and is intact,
I feel it and I know it for a fact.

Many more people came into your life,
and I got lost in the crowd.
Gone are those days when
I truly felt that I made you proud.

I feel elated when someone relates me to you,
it is always such a pleasure to talk about you.
You were my support,my pillar of strength,
it was always I who was insecure,never you.

Today,you stay miles away,
Still an achiever,still chasing a dream.
Setting standards for us to meet,
the whole world you can beat.

The love of your life is forever with you,
taking care,being there and we are all with you too.
Do not ever lose sight of the dream,though difficulties come in scores,
We await you with open arms on the other side of friendly shores...

Well,almost...

On a beautiful day like this,
a perfect platter for bliss.
All was perfect,not at all wrong,
almost nothing was amiss.

The not-so-clear skies,
with the clouds kissing them all over,
the ever-so-cool breeze,
setting in motion many a flower.

Holding each others hands,not letting go,
I asked time to go slow.
For once,my wishes were fulfilled,
by Time,by u and all I know.

My smile,then,was important to u,
such moments,for me,are few,
when I know that my happiness matters,
it sounds,to me,like something new.

That day was really mine,
be with me,and I'll be on cloud nine,
my life will be my own again,
and stars,for me,will shine.

Such a beautiful day,the view so perfect,
and nature playing the perfect host.
All was right,nothing at all wrong,
nothing was missing,
Well,almost...

Clueless...

When life gets so cruel,
defeats one in every duel...
where do you find the ray of hope...?
pain becomes,now,a dope!

Shattered by the hopelessness in sound,
battered by the storms around.
Where did those days vanish,
when opportunities were abound...?

When all doors close at once,
no light,not an ounce.
Groping around to find a way out,
with no faith and many a doubt.

Bang in the middle of this ocean called life,
finding no comfort,only strife.
Tossed about mercilessly by the waves,
never finding what this life craves...

Sailing in a boat without an oar,
having lost sight of the shore...
shouting for help and not finding it,
but trying and trying and trying some more...!