Dad s here :)

Probably they are right when they say that staying away for a while will help you know really how much you value a person.

If you know me pretty well, then you probably know how I was ranting about dad going to a place that is 12hours away from Bangalore. The last few months before I get married and I won’t get to spend enough time with daddy.

My heart felt as heavy as a rock when I had to see him away and this was 3 days before my birthday. My birthday is a very important day to him and his presence makes it the most special thing for me. Having been around my all these years on this day and going away this year felt crazy for me. And I’m sure daddy cried on my birthday too. My last birthday before I went away and dad just could not be there. Bad bad birthday! L

And today was when he got back home for his baby’s first step into a special journey.

Never ever had I waited with bated breath for someone’s arrival. I literally was counting minutes and cursing the clock for moving so slow. I thought the damn clock had stopped. But no. Now I know what it means when people say ‘I thought time’s not moving at all’!

And finally the doorbell rang announcing daddy’s arrival. There was nothing I could do to stop myself from grinning like a complete idiot. The delight of being home showed clearly on his face too. And next I remember is being cuddled like a baby in his arms. I felt like the world was at my feet. Daddy’s eyes were wet too. I wonder what it is that makes a father-daughter bond so special. He being back here was his gift to me for Father’s Day. Everything that I wanted to tell dad and share with him just came out in a blur, I have no idea how much of it he could even understand! Hehe… But knowing dad, he would have grasped every word that I ever uttered. That’s how it is. All the anxieties and tension melted away with his presence. I have the bestest dad in the world, and I know that’s exactly what every kid feels. It just felt so wonderful to realize that for a week I can get home and find paa waiting for me for me to tell him how the day went past! Alas, it’s going to last only a week. And I will enjoy while it lasts. How I wish days just stop right here, right now! J

So, that’s it for this post. I’m happpiiiiiiiiiiiiiieeeeeeeeeeeeee…

Love u, love u, love u daddy! Muah!

:) :)

This was supposed to be a post about something else completely! But just then I received a mail that the boy sent to all his colleagues announcing and inviting them for our engagement.

Just read through the text of the invite once, I saw it was not the text I wrote and sent out. I so wanted to yell at him and I actually did ask from who gave him the text! “GOOGLE” he said, with a grin, I could not help, I smiled too. In all of this, I forgot to look at the whole invite itself.

In the end were both of our names. Together. It was the best part of the whole invitation for me, it truly was. Our names together in the same sentence. So we are finally going to be spending our lives together. Nothing less than a dream come true for me. We sit and talk about the future, plan out which direction life should head and all the other nice things that two people in love talk about. For someone who never wanted to get married, this is a huge change and it was welcome even. As for me, I never thought that me and the boy could even be in a committed relationship no matter how badly I wanted to. But then, we are and we are getting married. Oh, I can gush forever!

Me and S were talking yesterday about marriage other related stuff, she said “it’s going to be funny to live in the same house”!  She is getting married in the first weekend of July. I loved all the girl talk that happened when we met today, it had been really long since we had met. And we went to U’s place, I was the surprise. Well, we were surprised with her attitude! OK, I don’t want to really talk about that you know!

So, the mails have gone out and people are really excited for the both of us. I am overwhelmed, he is happy. AND THE DREAM RUN BEGINS!!! J

Set me free!

This is a poem I'd written a loooong time ago, sometime in 2007. Sharing it now..

Waiting I am, as forever I was,
for that look, that touch of yours.
Take me in your arms and set me free,
from this pain I treasure in me.

Everything that was ever said and done,
all that happened and we became one,
is still on my mind and so much it cost,
I found myself with everything I lost!

There were no flowers that came my way,
but it was that made my day.
I know not how beautiful it would be,
until you showed me in your own sweet way.

My eyes searching for yours always,
my soul reaching out to you.
I hoped to stay away for a while,
I tried and it was so futile...

Your fragrance lingers on in my breath,
this passion shall live on till death,
light up and set me again on fire,
It will be me who will be consumed by desire...

The caress of your lips on mine,
was so beautiful, it was so fine.
I still remember as if it were yesterday,
it was just you, me and everything else at bay!

How you won over me is still a mystery,
but I gave you all that I had in me.
Come,take me in your arms and set me free,
from this pain I treasure in me...

We miss you...

This is for and about a very wonderful person that I had the privilege to know for about 20 years. For my dear uncle who left for his heavenly abode some three years ago.


You were all of 15 years the day I was born and I can see in the pictures that you were absolutely thrilled about your big brother’s baby girl. Dad was always the brother you loved, respected and feared sometimes and you were the mischievous son he never had, but you never communicated your love for each other. I guess that comes naturally with being a man. He loves you and I know you do too.


I have heard from people that things started going wrong once the family shifted to Bangalore; Bombay took away everything from you? How did you ever become the person you did after all those years of being the most successful kid in school? The gold medals, the best achiever certificates and your report cards are a mute testimony of the man you chose not to be. Was it your choice or were things never in your control? I know for a fact that you had the guilt of failing your parents and your brother but you had lot of chances to redo all that, didn’t you? I don’t want to see you hang your head in shame, but had you realised and redone things I would still have my uncle around.


Maybe I never told you but I loved having you around as a kid. I vividly remember the life you put into my 7th birthday party, the butterscotch flavored cake you got for me from The Oberoi, you and all your friends helping me cut the cake. Those were the wonderful memories we made together. Mum still proudly tells anyone who will listen to it. But tears well up in her eyes as she realizes that you will never get me another cake. She did everything she could to save you, to bring you back into our world, to give you the life you deserved, but you never came back. Maybe you just went too far away. Why did you not tell us what really happened? Was it a scarring experience related to ragging in college? Or was it a failed love story? Or was it something else? We will never know now.


You must see how similar I am to you. I am gifted with words, just like you. I can convince anyone with the way I talk, just like you. I stand up, unlike a lot of people, when I hear the national anthem, just like you taught me to. I am doing pretty well in life and you should have been here to see me scale new heights.


And you know what? Your little girl is all set to get married; she has found a lovely man for herself. I wanted you to be around for my wedding, appreciate my choice and cry when I leave to a new house, when I start a new life. I will miss having you around on the most important day in my life.

I still remember the day you very proudly said “she is my daughter”; I hope I have lived up to your expectations. I did falter on my way here, but I picked myself up and have come all way to where I am now. I know there are going to be difficult moments in my life, but I am going to be strong and pull myself out of it all because there is another person will need all my support and strength.


Promise to be there for us, to look after us from wherever you are. Promise to be my guardian angel, and to protect me from unexpected twists and turns. Promise to guide me through everything and give me indications about what’s right and what’s not. Promise to be at peace where you are. And promise me, you will always remember that we loved you and continue to do so. We miss you too.

When other things matter a lot...

Good morning guys! Early to office and I ve been reading this blog. A very happy happy kinda blog. There was a post about her best friend getting married and how she is on an emotional high. Now, my best friend is getting married too and I am super happy for her though I am not sure where I come into picture in her wedding plans, whether I do come into the picture at all or not! :( I ve been thinking how many people are really there who I can call best friends. Changing schools made sure that I did not have the same best friend for all my life. I did make many friends in the process, but not of the BFF kinda friends, you know what I mean... I vividly remember D's friends, all of them. The way they all came home and had fun together, I used to get jealous. I tried figuring out where I went wrong, what really happened. I took things too seriously, was too sensitive, had a horrible inferiority complex! And they found better people, I dont complain, I"m happy for them all. Looking back, I tried to find what each of them is doing now. AP is now in the US pursuing a degree in Computer Science, J is happy with her husband and angelic baby. S is getting married in July, so all is well with all of them. :) And that makes me content too. Though I ve missed on a lot of pajama parties, sleepovers, shopping trips, its still ok. Somewhere in the urge to excel beyond everyone else, we all lose touch with some of those that mattered a lot. Well, I am gonna try to make up for that lost time. And here s wishing S a very wonderful married life!

This is even better!

I should start writing more, what with the skill being appreciated n all! Its been beautifull so long, touch wood :) I waited and perceived and finally found him and also found he loved me. Here s to new beginnings. I am getting engaged and married to the man I wanted to spend my life with and it feels real good! When things got tough, we dritfed apart only to get back to each other. Maybe we were meant to be. Now, Im sure we are. Those mindless chats, me clinging on to him like there s nobody I want more, letting go of myself because I know he s there to constantly watch over me, these things give much more joy than I had thought. The acceptance from the families has been amazing. We waited for hiccoughs to surface, but so far so good. Its not gonna be long before I get tied down to more responsibilities, but I am looking forward to it. And now, I dont know what else to write! Here s to beautiful beginning ans abrupt ending! hehe...